This week the beautiful lady was set into final 20L Pot. Just a small defoliation of the biggfest leaves. Bending down the stemps with a scrog net. Light hitting with around 550 - 650 PPFD.

Gorilla Zkittlez Auto is a true work of art among autoflowers. With its powerful, dense buds literally dotted with 'sugar', each stage of growth of this plant is pure eye pleasure. The scent she exudes is as delicious as her taste-sweet, with fruity notes, promising an unforgettable delight. This beauty not only looks great, but also gives a strong, powerful effect that both relaxes and cheers up. Special thanks for this outstanding variety of 42Fast Buds, and, of course, Xpert Nutrients-your fertilizers made such impressive results possible. Each stage of growth was perfect thanks to this tandem. This variety is a real miracle for any grower! Xpert Nutrients is the fertilizer that truly makes a difference! 🌱 From the very start of our grow, Xpert Nutrients has proven itself to be exceptional. Every plant receiving this nourishment flourishes—from strong roots to dense, trichome-covered buds. With its balanced formula and ease of use, our beauties get everything they need for optimal growth and flowering. It’s a joy to see how the plants respond to this fertilizer! A huge thank you to Xpert Nutrients for your high-quality product and continuous support. Without your nutrients, our results wouldn't be as impressive! 🙌

Welcome to the Dutch Passion Growing Competition 2025! I choose Banana Blaze Auto for competing in this contest. The seeds were given to me by Dutch Passion for free. Thanks! These are my first indoor-grown autoflowers. I am looking forward to fast growth and big headbuds, lets see how the Banana Blaze likes the AutoPots! You will see that the seeds werent put directly in the center of the pots. I am planning on applying LST during the grow and gave myself some space to work with before hand. Stay tuned :) Update day 4: a small miracle happened - all seeds popped up on the same day! And by all I truly mean all, not only the three Banana Blaze Auto, but my two additional plants aswell! With all my autos perfectly synchronized, I can now start on a good note into these grows. Soon all plants exept the Banana Blaze sisters will move outdoors.

143gr for the Larger pheno and 97 for the shorter, very respectable yield in total for 3 Wk Veg. Total 240gr even they each had 1.5’x1.5’ of space. Big yielder, buds are 10/10 & very easy to grow . Could be prone to mold in an uncontrolled environment.

28/12/20. inicio de semana, 39 cm de altura hoy se aplico un nutriente foliar marca mexicana Rootz kelper son un extracto algas y azucarez y se aplico por riego giga grow. este contiene guano de murcielago todo organico. 30/12/20. hoy cuenta con 48cm de altura algunas hojas bajas se quemaron con un insectisida que les puse pero todo se vemuy bien sigue criciendo a buen ritmo hoy se uso un fertilizante organico rico en silicio con el al agua de riego 01/01/21. hoy se aplico un nutriente foliar marca mexicana Rootz💪 kelper son un extracto algas y azucarez y se aplico por riego giga grow. este contiene guano de murcielago 03/01/21. cierre de semana

everything is fine, the rains have stopped and it seems that the plants are quite mature, I think I will harvest them next week. It has been 2 weeks without watering with fertilizer, making the washing of roots as natural as possible. They have developed a very beautiful purple color in just 2 weeks, because of the stress caused by the cold. I have also found some worm and some rotten bud but usually it is holding very well. I found a leaf of a very powerful pink color, much more than I had ever seen, and that color is not repeated throughout the plant, I leave some photos. chekit

Well growmies , that was fun , I really enjoyed doing a outdoor run this year , it's really too bad about how the weather played out , but still I ended up getting a bunch of jars of some frosty Buds 👈 and thats what matters ..... Thanks to Ganjafarmers for the seeds ...... Would recommend to anyone, 👈 👉Big thanks goes out to all my growmies for sticking by me on my growing adventure 👈 And to NutriNPK Nutrients.... Well that's it's folks until next time 👉HAPPY GROWING 👈

1. LABS - I suggest using distilled water for the entire process ( no chlorine or chloramine). I also suggest the type of rice product shown ( 1/2 cup), it has red, brown, white, and black rice blended together. You get the benefits of each type. 2. Take the rice that was used in making the rice rinse for labs and boil it in 3 cups of water for 30 mins. Strain the rice out. Add 1 TBSP molasses per 300 mls. Use 300 mls of the above mixture during your watering cycles. It contains starches, b vitamins, aminos, trace minerals, calcium, magnesium, iron, phosphorus, potassium, and some nitrogen. The ppm’s are not higher than 200 ( if using distilled water). This is ONLY used if your plants are healthy. If your plants are sick…this will NOT help them. It will make stuff worse!!! The Hulk-Berry got a new home. 1 tsp 7-3-1, 1/2 tsp 0-12-0, 1/2 tsp Langbeinite, 1 TBSP 2-2-2, 3 TBSP 4-3-3, worm castings, recharge (1/32 tsp) into the soil ( Mother Earth). The 3 RuntZ are coming back from slow growth at the outset. I added LABS, Lentil SST, Photosynthesis Plus to the media. I did a foliar spray with recharge. 24-36 hours later the leaves exploded with growth and height. I added ZERO nutrients!!! I only used natural inputs and bacteria to get the root zone back in order. 11-3. Things are all in check! The LABS, SST’s and Rice wash have gotten the 3 RuntZ back on track. The Hulkberry is in full swing. I think I can get to 3 feet by flower time with the Hulkberry 11-5 All is well today!!! Everyone is very happy after the cal-mag, Photosynthesis Plus, kelp bath

99 - Ich habe die Hauptcolas geerntet, manikürt und gewogen; bin bisher bei 811,8 g Nassgewicht. 102 - Nach drei Tagen Ernte und einer Sehnenscheidenentzündung, habe ich jetzt beeindruckende 1829,2g (109,6g Popcornbuds) aus dieser Schönheit gewonnen.

25 and 28 days from planting. A couple of days before, I started cutting off the large leaves. Today I started doing LST. Perhaps I was a little hasty with this, but we'll see. The temperature problem has been resolved. Watering is carried out every 3 days. For the entire volume of the pot.

These ladies were heavy yielding - just wish the PK booster did not stunt them, I feel they could have even been larger, the buds are sweet and sticky, they smell amazing, they are hard and resinous - they have a beautiful mix of dark and light shades of green with bright orange hairs, very pretty, my friends are already in love with this weed, hits you like a Sativa and as the high lingers mellows like an Indica, I can't, wait to grow this again! The is an urban legend that occasionally a purple strain emerges, and when it does the outcome is legendary, just another reason to try this strain!

Now the Scrog!! 💐

SUMMARY: I flushed the NL with tap water straight from the hose. I’ve heard you’re supposed to flush with 3x the container volume, however that would be around 57 litres for a 5 gallon pot which seems absurd. I didn’t record the amount but I took my time and flushed with at least 30 litres. I will now continue to flush until harvest on 10th April by which point she should have faded nicely and used up any residual nutes. I read that the each time you water/irrigate you draw oxygen into the root zone and this promotes growth and in turn helps to increase yield and so I will endeavor to water her twice per day now until harvest. DAY 86 ----------- Sunday 28th March I flushed the NL with tap water straight from the hose. I’ve heard you’re supposed to flush with 3x the container volume, however that would be around 57 litres for a 5 gallon pot which seems absurd. I didn’t record the amount but I took my time and flushed with at least 30 litres.

Germination date 🌰 03/03/2021 Day 64 🌱 09/05/2021 Strain 🍁 Purple Matcha, Humboldt seed bank Nutrients 💉 Advanced nutrients PH perfect sensi grow A+B (veg) PH perfect sensi bloom A+b (flower) B-52 (through veg until week2 of flower) Voodoo juice (🖕🏻) Tarantula (🖕🏻) Piranha (🖕🏻) Sensizym (all the way through) Rhino skin (🖕🏻) add first leave for an hour Big bud coco (week2+ of flower Bud xfactor (🖕🏻) Nirvana (🖕🏻) Bud igniter (first 2weeks of flower) Overdrive (last 2weeks of flower) Flawless finish (flush week) RockHoldings Rockresinator(week2+ of flower) Vitalink calmag Set Up ⛺ amazon special 1.2m x1.2m 💡 spiderfarmer sf4000 📤📥 AC infinity 6inch 💧 10lt dehumidifier Notes🗒️✏️ It's not been a good weak at all for this girl. Moved light up another 6inches and turned it down to 80% but as you can see from the pics is gone from bad to worse. Unfortunately there is no way of getting around the bud damage so looks like i will just have to suck this one up and do it again minus the mistakes next time round. Just purchased Sin ciys Frosted biscotti and Ethos genetics banana hammock R1 .. now which one do I do 2 of as I've only got space for 4 as i have to do the purple matcha again because it smells so fucking awesome and is well frosty Frosty video uploaded 👍🏻 Stay turned and happy growing fam ❤️🍁🌱👍🏻

🌿 LSD — Week 8 From Seed (Week 4 Flower – Photoperiod) The room is full. Not chaotic-full. Intentional-full. And that’s a big difference. ⸻ 🌡️ ENVIRONMENT ANALYSIS 📊 Current Metrics • Canopy temp: 27.9°C • RH: ~70% • CO₂: 1000+ ppm (lights on) • PPFD: 800 → 1300 µmol/m²/s What This Means At ~28°C with 1000+ ppm CO₂, your plants can metabolically handle the higher PPFD range. This is a high-energy room right now. Humidity at 70% in week 4 flower is slightly on the upper edge for density like this, but: • We have airflow. • We have under-canopy lighting. • We have structured spacing. So this isn’t panic territory. It’s “monitor closely” territory. ⸻ 🌱 SUBSTRATE & FEEDING • Soil EC: 0.91 • Watering EC: 2.4 • pH: 6.5 • Medium temp: ~22.5°C • Moisture reading: ~94% (with active dry-backs) This is important: The graph rhythm described — feed → dry back → stabilization — That’s root steering. Your soil isn’t waterlogged. Your EC isn’t stacking. They’re drinking aggressively. And in week 4 flower, that’s exactly what you want. This is peak nitrogen-to-potassium transition phase. ⸻ 💡 LIGHTING STRATEGY Main Light Intensity We climbing as the canopy grows — smart. UVA/UVB — 6 Hours Mid-Cycle This is controlled stress application. At this stage (early-to-mid flower): • Trichome precursors are developing. • Secondary metabolite pathways are active. • Defense response can be nudged. Important: UV doesn’t create resin. It signals stress response pathways that can increase resin density under the right metabolic conditions. So far: No tacoing. No bleaching. No premature fade. That means dosage is within tolerance. ⸻ 🔴 15-Minute End-of-Day Red This is circadian tightening. Phytochrome manipulation: Pfr → Pr conversion accelerates. The plant “understands” night faster. Will yield explode? No. Will rhythm sharpen? Possibly. Subtle tools are what refine grows. ⸻ 🔦 UNDERCANOPY LIGHTING This is actually one of the most underrated parts of your setup. In a dense canopy like this: Benefits: • Lower bud sites don’t starve. • Hormonal dominance softens. • Larf reduction. • Internal airflow improves. Our structure supports it — because you didn’t over-strip last week. ⸻ 🌿 DEFOLIATION RESPONSE It looks like they didn’t get defoliated at all. That’s a sign of: • Strong root mass • Stable VPD • No nutrient imbalance • Good carbohydrate reserves Week 4 is the perfect recovery window. If they had stalled? You’d see smaller bud initiation. We’re not. ⸻ 🌸 LET’S TALK ABOUT THE WHITE HAIRS (PISTILS) Those “white hairs” are pistils — female reproductive organs. They are: • Stigma structures • Designed to catch pollen • Directly connected to ovule tissue inside the calyx Why are they exploding now? Because the plant has fully transitioned from vegetative dominance to reproductive hormone signaling. Auxin redistribution shifts. Gibberellins reduce. Flowering genes are active. We’re now in: Active bud site multiplication phase. The number of pistils at week 4 indicates: • Good hormonal balance • No stress-induced reversion • Strong floral initiation ⸻ 🌿 STRUCTURE – HYBRID BUT SATIVA EXPRESSION We’re noticing: • Vertical middle branching • Internodal stretch • Upward lateral arms Even though LSD is a hybrid, phenotype expression can lean sativa structurally. This gives us: • Longer cola potential • Slightly airier stacking (good for airflow) • Potentially later bulking Now the question: Will this become a dominant main cola? Based on structure: Yes — but not a single spear. More likely: A structured central column with strong secondary tops. We didn’t top aggressively. So apical dominance remains. But the mid-sides are competitive. This is a balanced dominance structure — not a Christmas tree, not a bush. ⸻ 📈 WHAT TO EXPECT NEXT WEEK (Week 5 Flower) You should see: Calyx swelling begins Pistils start thickening, not just multiplying Slight trichome production visible on sugar leaves Stretch slowing down Nutrient demand increases What you should NOT expect yet: ✘ Major bud density ✘ Heavy trichome frosting ✘ Fan leaf fade ✘ Pistil darkening in bulk We’re still in building phase. ⸻ 🧠 ONE IMPORTANT THING Humidity at 70% in week 5 will become more critical. As density increases: We will lower it gradually toward 60–62%. Not aggressively. Gradually. Our room is stable. We don’t shock it. ⸻ 🌿 OVERALL IMPRESSION They look: • Even • Uniform • Almost clone-like • Structurally consistent That uniformity from seed? That’s good selection genetics. This room feels intentional. Not experimental. Not chaotic. 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Trust me, you won’t want to miss the next steps, let’s push the boundaries of indoor horticulture together! As always, this is shared for educational purposes, aiming to spread understanding and appreciation for this plant. Let’s celebrate it responsibly and continue to learn and grow together. With true love comes happiness. Always believe in yourself, and always do things expecting nothing and with an open heart. Be a giver, and the universe will give back in ways you could never imagine. 💚 Growers love to all 💚 📸 P.S. – The Eye Behind the Lens All photos in this diary (for now — except for the ones showing the camera, which I took with an iPhone) are taken with a Sony A6700 paired with a Sony full-frame macro lens and a few more. Photography is part of the story — it’s how we share the fine textures, the glow, and the quiet details that words can’t always capture. 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8/17 Watered everything but the 50. Found two leaves with sep markings on the pink kish in the 50. Definitely not using old soil again. I'm pretty sure THIS plant contracted it from the soil and not the way the others did with the lawn mower and birdseed hijinx. It's supposed to rain for the first time basically all summer. It's am 80% chance so I HELD OFF ON PLANT DOCTOR AND DID NOT APPLY as I'm supposed to have a clear day after. I'll apply the plant doctor in the morning. I'm hoping this rain will knock down a bunch of those thrips. They seem to be on a small branch on a plant or two. One or two leaves show damage and I'll pick them off. I figure I'll get them after I apply plant doctor. I'll use either citric acid or just my regular bt-k pillar treatment with Castille or liquid soap. That will kill them as well. I'm on really worried about it. I also might just buy a bunch of lady bugs and unleash them once things get further along. EDIT: TOOK A QUICK VIDEO AND A COUPLE PICS. HOPEFULLY WE GET THIS RAIN. IF NOT IM GOING TO TREAT THE THRIPS THAT ARE ON TWO PLANTS NOW. I THINK IM GOING TO GO WITH BT-K FOR NY PILLARS AND HOPE THAT THE DISH SOAP IN THE MIX KILLS THE THRIPS. I HAVE LOTS OF DIFFERENT OPTIONS SO ILL FIGURE SOMETHING OUT. BUDS SEEM TO BE EXPLODING IN GROWTH. OH AND THANKS TO THE OUTDOOR GROWER THAT MESSAGED OFFERING TO HELP. I APPRECIATE THAT. THANKS. 8/18 We got the rain we were expecting. It was sheet rain for a few hourscand rained during the night. Everything was drenched and it was cold (50°F). I shook off the special kush that's way further in flower. I decided to use the leafblowrr despite the risk of spreading anything. I did it so that it wasn't ever blowing TOWARDS another plant but still. I was hoping it might blast off some thrips that might have survived that torrential rain. We've never had a dry summer like this. I'll moniter things. My water day is tomorrow so I assume that's when the girls will get their plant doctor dose. It's a great time of year for cannabis growers. We get to watch all the hard work we've put in literally pay off. It's very peaceful in the garden. EDIT: Went over at about one to check things out and do some minor defoliation. I checked on the thrip situation and I dont know if I blasted them off with the leafblower or if the rain washed them away bit I doubt it. Ivecmade the decision to treat these little bastards. It's on one plant but it's started to spread to another branch on another plant. I probably just overlooked it but still. Seeing that it rained like he'll and I'm seeing like zero signs of septoria I'm going to treat everything. At least I think I am. I haven't decided what to use. I think I could just use bt and soap and I'd probably be alright. I'd feel better doing that as it's something I'm familiar with. Outdoor growing. It's always something. 8/19 In the 40's last night. Hopefully that will help with the thrips. I was hurried and since today tops at 72° I only watered the 10th planet big mk ultra and the chem dog with preventative plant doctor. I'm not seeing hardly any septoria and if I do itsca random leaf. I mixed up 3tsp of citric acid and some Dawn in a 2 quart hand sprayer and treated the 10th planet that I thought had heat stress and the Pink kush in the ten gal that has the damage. I also treated a branch on my good tenth planet. It was the only branch with markings so I think I've got it early enough. I'm just wondering the best way to tackle this. The pink kush I'm sure, could handle spinosad. That strain is much later flowering. I'll see how the citriccacid works and go from there. If the other girls need water they'll get it when I get home alongcwith plant doctor. I've got some work to do. I'll keep this updated. Opinions are always welcome. UPDATE: THE PLANT IN THE TEN I SPRAYED LOOKS BETTER THAN WHEN I SPRAYED IT! I ALSO DIDNT WATER AS ITS UNDER 70° AND EVERYTHING I WATERED LOOKS WORSE THAN WHAT I DIDNT. WATERING NEEDS CHANGE QUICK WITH A 40° TEMP SWING. THESE THRIPS ARE GONNA HAVE A FEW MORE NOGHTS IN THE 40'S. THE CITRIC ACID SEENED TO KILL ON CONTACT. MY PROFESSIONAL BUDDY ADVISED TO ORDER GREEN LACEWINGS AS OPPOSED TO USING SPRAYS. HE SUGGESTED SPOT TREATMENT BUT AFTER MY RESEARCH ON THRIPS THAT WONT HE AS EFFECTIVE. I HAVENT DECIDED WHAT TO DO. I MAY ORDER THE LACEWINGS AND I MAY CONTINUE AND ROTATE TREATMENT. I DONT WANT TO OVERREACT (WHICHVI TEND TO DO) BUT I ALSO DONT WANT ALL MY LEAVES TO DIE. ILL KEEP THIS UPDATED. IM PLANNING TO GO OVER TONIGHT AND CHECK THINGS OUT. I MAY SPRAY A FEW MORE PLANTS AND WATER WHILE IM THERE. ITS TIME FOR THERE PLANT DOCTOR PREVENTATIVE. 8/20 I watered the two kush in the back WITH THE PREVENTATIVE DOSE OF PLANT DOCTOR as they were dry I assume due to the wind they get. The one in the 50 I found one sep leaf. Looking carefully arpund the garden I can tell that I have a thrip infestation. First time I've fought this and it seems most people don't really know what to do besides predators at the beginning of the season. I'm too far along for spinosad. At least thats what I've been told. My pro buddy said to try to spot treat it. It's not bad bit I'm afraid it might be worse than I think. The plants I treated with citric acid look MUCH better. I think I'll dial the dosage of citric acid down and start with that tonight and switch up treatments. I can get rid of them it's just going to take a ton of work. I think I've had them before and I attributed to something else. I so think that the very early pink kush plants could handle spinosad. I hope so. The plants I watered the other day look overwatered. The plants I didn't water look GREAT. The special kush in late flower looks happier than I've ever seen her. The difference being we went from 104° one day to 72 the next with 46° night Temps. This week is highs of 70's lows of high 40°'s. I've got a lot of work cut out for me. Didn't do a video as I didn't have time but I'll do one. EDIT: Nothing needed to be watered at noontime and I'm trying to not overwater so I left them. The two I watered this morning are fine. I'm glad I caught this thrip bullshit when I did bit it sounds like it's going to be a HUUUGE pain in the ass to beat. One thing right after another. I've found those suction marks and the silvery shit they leave behind on pretty much every plant now. I'm thinking me using the leafblower (away from the other plants I THOUGHT) must have blown a bunch of them around. I'm not seeing a lot of bugs. Mainly feces. I did find a couple adults. Honestly, I've probably had these before and not known it or attributed it to something else. Literature I'd all about spinosad which of course I have on hand. AI told me I could use spinosad in early flower so MAYBE I could treat the pink kush plants with it but ill have to figure something else out for the other girls. I'm planning to treat tonight depending on where the research takes me. Not sure exactly what I'll be using but I'll keep this updated. 8/21 IT got cold last night. It was low 40's when I went to the garden. I watered the special kush in late flower and the mk ultra I kept natural. Did some defoliation. Found little feather on a large branch. Birds have been helping with pillars. I left out the plant doctor on those watering as septoria has pretty much been eradicated. Plants are drinking significantly less water. It went from 104° day time to 72°. Same with the nighttime Temps. Luckily with Temps like this the thrips don't seem to have spread. I found a couple lacewi g eggs while looking for pillars. Hopfully they will help. Maybe spot treatment and decoliation will he enough. I'll update as I go. EDIT: Went back over around noon and put up blue sticky traps and did some defoliation. I may go back tonight and treat some stuff. Not sure yet. 8/22 This is the last of the cold weather. At least for a week. It will be like 70s today but temps WILL go up so I need to figure out what to do about these thripsxandcstick to it. Doesn't look like it's spreading but I've seen adults now. The sticky traps caught one. I killed one but I'm seeing lots of yellowing leaves. I know they are flowering but still. I watered today butvi watered much less. I gave the two kush invthe back a half gallon each. I gave the special kush in the 10 half a gallon, the mk ultra 1 gal, 10th planet's both got half a gallon I think but I mightve given the big one a whole gallon and chem dog got a half gallon. Once Temps stabilize watering will be more consistent. I need to factor in the change since they are floweringcas well. I've seen some enormous locusts that I've chased away. I don't SEE the thrips but they are there. I killed ONE adult this morning. I haven't seen any sep leaves in a while so that's a bonus. Pink kush is far behind the rest in flower.

About to start week 8 of flush

Am so chuffed with this lady . She's exceeded my expectations